A QUESTION OF LIFE

[GHoSToKeR]

someone with different beliefs will be bigger than you, and you'll have to live by their beliefs, and to try to break from those beliefs will cause you nothing but pain and misery.

I was with ya up until that

The thing is, you're right, it doesnt actually matter why we think we're here..

But, i dont understand what you meant by "someone with different beliefs will be bigger than you, and you'll have to live by their beliefs"

I get flamed for my 'beliefs' (or lack of beliefs) all the time.. and there have been alot of people in my life with more authority, over people and myself, there have been people who are better with words, better at explaioning their beliefs, people with "proof" (whatever that means) but my beliefs are exactly that - MY BELIEFS. no one is gonna change my beliefs, for any reason

i remember when i was in secondary school, the head of the school invited 5 of us to have lunch with him in his office, so he could see how we were getting on etc.. then he said he was thinking about makin it mandatory for people to pray at lunchtimes.. i said "what if someone doesnt believe in god?" and his response was "everyone believes in god.. even if they dont think they do" and i said "well, i dont believe in a god, i havent done for years, and theres no way youre gonna make me pray to YOUR god" and you know what he did? he suspended me for 2 months!!! then when i came back to school and was having lunch i noticed that the teachers were makin everyone pray before eating! i refused to pray, and i got kicked out of lunch and put in detention.. it happened the next day - i refused to pray and i got detention, and the head called me to his office and asked why i just wouldnt pray? i told him that i dont believe in god, i never have and never will, and that nothing they do will make me even pretend to believe in god

anyway, i went off on a tandem then .. ive just waked and baked so my mind is wondering slightly lol

my point iiiiiissssssssssssss, if you really believe something, or dont believe something, then nothing or no one should or will be able to change that

umm.. what was the question again? oh yeah, ummm.. nope, ive lost it

rock on \m/

GHoSToKeR Reviewed by GHoSToKeR on 10-30-2004. A QUESTION OF LIFE WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE QUESTION? Rating: 5

[RESiNATE]

So, you prove my point, GHoST!

Someone bigger than you (ie, your headmaster) has different beliefs than you (ie, in God), so you try to break free from those beliefs (ie, telling him that you don't believe in God), which has caused you pain and misery (ie, suspension from school for 2 months).

I rest my case.

[GHoSToKeR]

Someone bigger than you (ie, your headmaster) has different beliefs than you (ie, in God), so you try to break free from those beliefs (ie, telling him that you don't believe in God), which has caused you pain and misery (ie, suspension from school for 2 months).

True, BUT I still kept my beliefs.. I didn't acquiesce because of the pressure from him.. I simply told him how it was, and what I personally believed, and I was punished for it.. So, though I was suspended and had to do detention, I didn't give in and I wasn't in the wrong

To me, sticking to my beliefs is more important than anything else.. If other people want to persacute me for that then it's them that's in the wrong..

**passes Res the joint**

Chill my man

Tell GHoST whats troubling you

[RESiNATE]

The fact of the matter is this.

I had plans for today, indeed my whole life, but each time that I try to realise those plans, something comes along to scupper them; ie, the bank has left me no money, or my ex- is giving me grief, because she thinks that I owe her some sort of respect and caring..pah!..
I work fucking hard all week, and all that I ask is to live a moderatly unassuming life - I cause no one harm, and wish no malice towards anyone - and yet, I am never made happy. Anything that I try to do to improve my life or outlook thereof, is thwarted at every turn by the requirements of this fucking unfair system of rich-get-richer, poor-get-poorer. Evilness seems to win over good at every battle, and selfishness gets rewarded.
Show a little compassion, or caring, or love, and everything goes against you - you're seen as some kind of wierdo.

You spend your life thinking that there are certain aims and 'promises' - there si someone for evryone in this world, someone that is made for you, so we are told...all of it is lies...or , if it is true, you can only see those things from a distance, because quite frankly, it is just another torment designed to confuse you...another barrier that has to be overcome!

I'm fed up of trying to climb over barriers.
I'm pissed off that I have been 'lied' to for all these years, and that, actually, I seem to be some kind of puppet for the amusement of some unseen tormentor.

I'm pissed off with living.
Pissed off that every morning I wake up to the same struggle, day in day out, with seemingly no means of escape.
Fucked off, that everything that I love, is either out of reach, or denied me all together.
And fucked off that people who exhibit an attitude of selfish behaviour and lack of compassion, seem to have better lives and are happy in their own world.

Why is it, that compassion and caring, are rewarded with pain and hardship - at every level?
Why is it, tha the desire to live peacefully and unambiguously, are met with derision, ridicule, and no small amount of distain?
Why is it, that my simple wishes from life can't be realised, when others who live their lives with greed and possession, seem always to get what they desire - even though their actions can be seen as detrimental to the grand scheme of things?

There is no justice, and therefore, no point.

There is no spoon.

[High phy]

hey, dont want to sound rude or anything but... dont you guys wanna toke?

[RESiNATE]

I would love to have a toke, but you know what? I aint got any money to buy any dope, because the bank has taken it all.
I aint got enough money to do anything!

I see people on the dole, sapping the state - my taxes - to pay for their life of fucking happiness, whilst I - the provider of their happiness - is made to suffer moire and more.
This system sucks worse than a granny chewing lemons!

Fucking fuck it

Somebody could arrange a fund raiser for me, to hire a hitman and do away with me - please!
I wont even struggle or hide - just tell me when you've arranged it, then I'll tell you where I'll be and what time I'll be there..then BAM!...fin!

[High phy]

ay, que feo se oye fin.

[GHoSToKeR]

Res, when people tell me of their problems, I usually try and give my advice to the best of my abilities..

but, sadly I don't know what to say - I still have a very positive outlook on life (not on the world, but on life), because I haven't properly lived in this world yet.. Whenever I try to give advice on things like this I usually sound patronising - because I'm just giving advice from what I think, not what I know..

So, my friend, all I can do is wish you luck with the problems you're going through right now.. I know everyone says this, but (hopefully) it will get better.. You just have to see it through and come out on top

Peace, man

[RESiNATE]

No, things wont get better -I've been thinking that for nigh on 20yrs, and no matter how hard I try, I fail.

Sure, there are brief spells, but there's always something that comes along and slaps everything back into reality.
No matter how much hope I had, it is all gone. As with everything else.
There is no hope for someone like me. I am cursed with a mind that thinks outside of the box, and as such am tormented by my beliefs and ideals.
I am destined to live a life that is filled with sharp reminders that I am but one small insignificant person, who has some strange ideas about how people should act and behave - and there's nothing that I can do to change it.

I doesn't matter what I believe - I wont forsake them, but I can't implement them. Even if I try to implement them in my own little circle of life, it dpoesn';t conform to the protocol, and therefore is seen as a rebellious activity and is met with resistance.

[maryjanemama]

Res, I was wondering, is there any way that you can get the courts to tell your ex she's not getting any more money from you? I mean, there's no way she can get blood from a stone, right? I know a guy with an ex much like yours, she was trying to extract every last penny from him (really she was trying to extract all the life left in him).

So, finally, the judge said she had to prove where all of the $$$ was going. She was saying she was using it all towards their daughter but it turned out she was really going on vacation, etc. Now she has to have receipts for everything she buys with his child support money. And she gets $500 less a month now because he proved she was wasting all the cash on herself and not the kid.

I know it's easy to say money doesn't matter but it does matter when not having enough is destroying your life. I've come to the realization that I will never have enough cash...never, it's that simple. Also, if someone tells me to smile and spark up, I will find you, and possibly kill you for being an asshole because I am out of weed...unless you want to give me all of yours.

Res,it may seem like the only way out is to put yourself out of your misery but you can't because you have kids. You have 2 huge responsibilities now and they need a father, you can't take that away from them. Besides, you cannot leave them alone with your crazy ex. It's not fair, but your life is not just your own now, it's your kids', too.