hopefully you will figure yourself out and find a way to do the things you like while maintaining some sort of income... Coke can be some bad shit if you have trouble controlling your urge to use it, cause its some expensive crap. Kronik, perhaps you could take up gardening, cultivate yourself some gorgeous Mary Janes and marvel at the simplicity of a plants existence. I have been involved with the outdoors all my life but some of my friends that where more sheltered while growing up found getting into nature to be quite soothing... even though they can't grow shit on their own LoL

and dude, dont worry about your friends drug use, you know that they can do as they please... and if they don't realize that they probably shouldent be your friends (more like your lackeys LoL)