bagz babe maybe u need to find a happy medium. It sounds like u have changed and want to stay that way. U know i have faith in u, and i can go on and tell u it all over again, but u really need to have more faith in urself. U are a good person with alot to offer even if its thru ur rhymes u can do what ever u set ur mind too. Just reach inside urself and pull out the bagz that most of us know is in there.