Quote Originally Posted by Kronik Bagz
aight, i have a problem here. lately i been takin a look at myself an ive noticed that i am a whole different person now than i was when i was still blazing, i think this could cause serious psychological issues later in life but i got too many those already to care bout that shit. the real problem is that i wanna go back to smokin up but now when i look back i hate who i was, i didnt give a shit bout myself, anyone else, or anything i did. i stole like hell not even caring how stupid it was or about the consequences. i was thinkin bout one time i walked out of k-mart one time wit a stereo not even thinkin twice about it an tha thought i did that shit realy buggs me. i hate my past ways jus not givin a shit cause now i know how dumb i was an i know what happens when u get busted an i dont need to go through this shit ever again.

but heres the kicker, i also hate who i am now, i am manic-depressant(have been since i can remember but wasnt that bad when i was blazin), i also have panic attacks now where i used to blaze up now i jus feel like im dying an i hate it. im also very high strung an im alwayse ready to blow up on people, at the moment i enjoy letting out my anger but afterwards i feel like shit an like i hurt someone who didnt deserve it.

can anyone please help me out here, like a lil advice or somethin??? i have stopped seein my psychiatrist an my counselors, i have also stopped takin all my meds. should i start goin back to couseling an shit, start takin my meds again?? also i would rather smoke weed an have my old problems than tha ones i have now but i jus wanna know if this sounds like a bad idea to others.


thanx fer readin this, sorry if its long,

peace an bagz,
kronik
man, get control of yourself, cool down, aight, you took your break from smoking right?
ok, but you dont want yto go back to it b/c you dont like who you were?
were!!!! grow up a little babe.
take some responsibility, and do dhit right. there sre no exuses why you shouldnt.
smoke your weed,
just smoke it responsibly!
chill out you'll be alright.
k?

sorry if that is too harsh!
i like to be straight forward!