aight, i have a problem here. lately i been takin a look at myself an ive noticed that i am a whole different person now than i was when i was still blazing, i think this could cause serious psychological issues later in life but i got too many those already to care bout that shit. the real problem is that i wanna go back to smokin up but now when i look back i hate who i was, i didnt give a shit bout myself, anyone else, or anything i did. i stole like hell not even caring how stupid it was or about the consequences. i was thinkin bout one time i walked out of k-mart one time wit a stereo not even thinkin twice about it an tha thought i did that shit realy buggs me. i hate my past ways jus not givin a shit cause now i know how dumb i was an i know what happens when u get busted an i dont need to go through this shit ever again.

but heres the kicker, i also hate who i am now, i am manic-depressant(have been since i can remember but wasnt that bad when i was blazin), i also have panic attacks now where i used to blaze up now i jus feel like im dying an i hate it. im also very high strung an im alwayse ready to blow up on people, at the moment i enjoy letting out my anger but afterwards i feel like shit an like i hurt someone who didnt deserve it.

can anyone please help me out here, like a lil advice or somethin??? i have stopped seein my psychiatrist an my counselors, i have also stopped takin all my meds. should i start goin back to couseling an shit, start takin my meds again?? also i would rather smoke weed an have my old problems than tha ones i have now but i jus wanna know if this sounds like a bad idea to others.


thanx fer readin this, sorry if its long,

peace an bagz,
kronik
Kronik Bagz Reviewed by Kronik Bagz on . I NEED ADVICE aight, i have a problem here. lately i been takin a look at myself an ive noticed that i am a whole different person now than i was when i was still blazing, i think this could cause serious psychological issues later in life but i got too many those already to care bout that shit. the real problem is that i wanna go back to smokin up but now when i look back i hate who i was, i didnt give a shit bout myself, anyone else, or anything i did. i stole like hell not even caring how stupid Rating: 5