well im turning 18 next month and i forgot to mention that i hit my head in a pretty bad car accident about 2 months ago, and my doctor sed if i become depressed then to visit him right away, which i didnt do because i wasnt sure if i was depressed or not, and thats why i was thinking it cud be my mind playing triks on me hahah... but what about the smoking??? everytime im high im always gonna be paranoid and trippin balls about my heart for some reason... but im really hoping that i cud have fun with it again soon hahah