I'm sorry to hear about your trip. Don't give up hope and take it easier with the herb. You probably only need .5 grams of some nice chronic to get you in that relaxed state of stone (From smoking, not eating). From there you can proggress into a much more intense stone and appreciate its wonder. Also can you describe what was so terrible about your experience? I'm sure a lot of people on this forum wouldn't mind helping you achieve that inner bliss with cannibis.