Something really freaky is happening...

[GHoSToKeR]

Right, most of you that know me a bit by now should know that I don't believe in anything that hasn't been or can't be proved, basically because I don't see any need/reason to.. I don't believe in God, fairy tales, myths, ghosts (ironic, eh? :P) dragons, witches, psychics, telekinesis, etc etc

BUT, something really freaky has been happening to me over the last couple of days.. In fact, it's shaken me up so much i've even started writing it down everytime it happens! (don't laugh lol)

So, i'll try and explain it to you guys, so you can (hopefully) tell me what you think.. I'll start from the beginning -

It's wednesday night.. Itsd been an average day. By that I mean nothing out of the ordinary is happening, has happened, or is probably going to happen. Just another day in the life of the GHoST.. I decide to go for a smoke with a couple of good friends at one of our usual haunts (excuse the pun!). This place is at the very top of a marina called Havre Des Pas (thats a pic of it at the bottom, the thing with the blue railings). We decided to take some music with us, so my friend brings a CD player.. walking along the bridge to get to Havre Des Pas, im smoking a joint and in a really good mood, i suddenly had an image (i dont wana call it a premonition, because thats too cliche lol) of us sitting at the top and listening to RadioHead and talking about when we were in school.. all i thought at that time was "hmm", but then when we finally got there, my mate put on a Radiohead CD.. i thought "ok thats wierd" but shrugged it off. i thought i must have seen the CD case without realising it.. after being there for a while one of my mates starts talkin about what it was like when we were still at school... i still didnt think anythin of it; i just thought "hmm, we musta been talkin about it before or something"

the same thing kept happening on thursday.. whenever the phone rang, i knew who it was gonna be (that happened about six times) whenever i put the radio on in the car i knew what song was gonna come on next.. my mate, who thinks hes really funny, kept tellin me jokes in the car too.. id never heard a single one but i knew what the punchline to all of them was gonna be..

i would have an image of someone in my head, and then five minutes later id see them walkin down the road, or driving past... i knew what people were gonna say before they said it.. i knew what people were gonna be wearing before i met up with them.. it keeps happening.. i know whats gonna be on TV before it comes on.. just hundreds and hundreds of little things like that keep happening, without fail, and its always right.. i havent been wrong yet.. and its freaking the hell out of me..

if somebody was saying this to me, what im saying now, id just laugh and say theyre smokin too much weed, or theyre paranoid etc etc, but its actually happening to me..

but, thats not the only thing thats scaring me.. sure, all these things have just been minor details (whats gonna be on tv or the radio or in the newspaper; what clothes someone will be wearing; something somebody is gonna say, etc etc) but since this has been happening, theres been almost a dark cloud over me the whole time.. its not visible, i cant see it, smell it, feel it, or hear it, but i can sense it. if anybody has read Stephen King's 'The Dark Tower 5 - The Wolves Of Callah', they would have a clue of what i mean (when they go 'todash' into New york).. even though im outside in the sun (granted the weather has been shit lol) or in a well-lit room, it still seems dark.. like, as i said before, theres a dark cloud over me that isnt casting a shadow, but i can always sense it.. like the world has become dark only to me.. maybe im being melodramatic, its just the only way i can explain it

now, you might think "hes going crazy".. and i think that too lol, but whats scaring me is this - this 'dark cloud' has been going through my mind non-stop the last few days.. and one thought keeps coming back to me when i think hard about it is death. to me it feels like its a warnin that death is near.. not me, i dont think im gonna die just yet, but someone very close to me is.. whats even more wierd, is that 4 people that were close not to me, but to people close to me (for example, my brothers ex-boss and good friend) have died recently.. its as if death is getting closer and closer to me, you know? man its so hard to explain.. the thing is, normally id shrug this off as paranoia, and cut down on the weed for a while, or maybe get some professional help (lol), but i cant, because of all these little things ive been seeing that have come true (the next song on tv; the person on the other end of the phone before i answer it; clothes ppl will be wearing etc etc etc) so, as you may guess, im really paranoid

so, the GHoST, is going crazy.. i hope ur gettin a good laugh out of this LOL

i just hope im wrong

GHoSToKeR Reviewed by GHoSToKeR on 10-23-2004. Something really freaky is happening... Right, most of you that know me a bit by now should know that I don't believe in anything that hasn't been or can't be proved, basically because I don't see any need/reason to.. I don't believe in God, fairy tales, myths, ghosts (ironic, eh? :P) dragons, witches, psychics, telekinesis, etc etc BUT, something really freaky has been happening to me over the last couple of days.. In fact, it's shaken me up so much i've even started writing it down everytime it happens! (don't laugh lol) Rating: 5

[GotAMinute419]

sounds like a episode of the X-Files

[jacquelyne]

i think u have drug induced psychosis

[apsinthion]

I don't suppose you could think up tonight's lottery numbers while your at it? Lol. No seriously I'll split the winning's 50/50 with ya lmao!

Sound's like some kind of depression or anxiety related Derealisation to me GHoST. Or maybe your the new messiah lol. Very strange anyway though, has this changed your view's on the paranormal at all?

[High phy]

now thats freaky. I wish you intelligence, so you can handle your state in the best posible way. Read something man, Schizoprenia, deja vu, Allucinations and memory disorders, you dont have to get paranormal. I can ask some good old spiritist if you like to get esoteric tho.

[GHoSToKeR]

LOL hahahahaha


sorry but hahahahahaha lol lol ahah hehehe hohoho hihihi hahaah hehehe hohoh lmao

[RESiNATE]

Cuh! I knew you were gonna say that lol

[Bro DZ]

if somebody was saying this to me, what im saying now, id just laugh and say theyre smokin too much weed, or theyre paranoid etc etc, but its actually happening to me..

so, the GHoST, is going crazy.. i hope ur gettin a good laugh out of this LOL

i just hope im wrong

dude, you are so right LoL! Seriously GHoST, you gotta quit trippin. Maybe your a schizto

Peace

[GHoSToKeR]

Cuh! I knew you were gonna say that lol

MWAhahahahaha

[RESiNATE]

Okies, reality check.

There is much about the human brain that we do not know about. Who can say that we have not just forgotten how to use and harness our most primative powers - moreover, who's to say that we haven't been encouraged to forget about those powers.
I, for example, am very perceptive - I can usually see that which others wish to be hidden from me (emotions etc) - and used to amaze a certain person that was once in my life, at my ability to 'see through' their best efforts at disguising their true feelings or fears. Whose to say that we once used to communicate with the power of our brains.
Drugs, especially psychoactive ones, often open our minds to things that the 'non-druggie' would dismiss as a trip, and yet, to us, the revelations are as real as life itself. I'm not talking about cows floating in the sky, but more about seeing sound as colours, or other such experiences - after all, whether we are under the influence of drugs or not, we still see them.
I believe that there is more to us than we think, and using psycho-active drugs, is a way of opening the doors to those 'lost powers'.

did I say that twice?
huh?

lol
I often get de ja vu, and can sometimes 'sense' things that others cannot - when very close friends are in pain (mental or physical), or if I am going to be in danger.

For example;
One night, a long time ago, a friend and I were going to a club. It was a long drive to this club, but as soon as we pulled up to it, I suddenly had a 'bad feeling', and suggested to my mate that we pass on it tonight. Even though we had driven a fair distance to this club, we turned round and went somewhere else.
Later that week, my mate rang me to tell me that on the night in question, there was a massive fight, and 5 people got stabbed!

eerie