I read this, and, for me, it doesn't help. I've known about that kind of thing for a long time, to me it was just common sense, I sort of just always understood those things. But it doesn't work, I have a really hard time sleeping and no matter what I do I just can't sleep a lot of the times.

It's nothing my mind can make up for, it's just one of it's handicaps. It never really shuts off. I'm a really, REALLY light sleeper and I've had bags under my eyes since the 2nd grade. It's just something I've learned to live with, ya know? If I don't sleep tonight, I'll just sit up and listen to music until it's time for me to get up. Like I do every night.

I would get prescription pills, but my family doesn't trust me with the hypnotic sleep inducers my doctor was going to give me (Ambien) because I smoke pot and they're afraid I'm gonna take those pills to get fucked up off of them. In the scheme of things, they're probably right. I'd probably end up taking 2 instead of 1 just to feel fucked up, and I'd stay up for a little bit to enjoy the feeling until I passed out.

Oh well, life goes on, deep sleep or no.