Quote Originally Posted by BigBlock
That really sucks. I had a similar situation recently...I found my friend's body. He put a gun in his mouth. As much as it hurts I know he must have been feeling much worse to do such a thing. I used to think it was stupid/ridiculous/selfish/cowardly/ect too, but I think I understand why someone could do that now. It's just hard to imagine untill you have some really bad things happen in your life...then it seems so obvious.

If he was here now I'd give him a hug and them punch him in the face for doing what he has to his friends and family. I'll have the image of how I found him stuck in my head forever.
I tried to commit suicide before(I was horribly depressed for 4 years because of physical and verbal abuse from my dad), but the gun misfired, scared the fucking shit out of me. Afterwards I looked at my family and I understood how horrible they would feel, how selfish of me for even trying is how I felt. If you do that you dont even think about anything but yourself, and thats what I thought about when I squeezed the trigger: nothing but myself. I told him this and he agreed it was selfish...then 2 months later, hes fuckin gone.