I feel for you. I know that you are going through some serious emotions right now and your anger is understandable but I do hope you will find your way clear of it soon. Your friend was obviously in a lot of pain, too much pain for him to see clear of this moment in his life and beyond to some peace and happiness. People dont end their physical lives when they have everything going for them. That is your perception from your perspective. You will need to get past looking at it from your point of view if you are ever to heal the wounds you have from this. Losing a best friend like this is horrible and I am trying to find the words to help some of the horror leave you. I feel for you and his other friends, his girlfriend and his family.
In his perspective his life was too painful and he felt that there was no escape possible. There is nothing anyone could have done unless he himself decided to open himself to share his pain.
You said that his father committed suicide last year. I can imagine the hole that left in your friend. He was not the person inside that he portrayed on the outside. He likely never started to heal his own wounds.
For a boy/man to lose a father is beyond tragic...beyond words.
He obviously felt as though he could not go on through whatever pain he was feeling. You dont need me to tell you that. Why else would he do it?
Know that he is for now free of what tortured him, whatever that may be. In my beliefs, he is not dead. He is merely not in body. He will need to learn the lessons that his life was to teach him, in another way at another time. Your friend is eternal.
Celebrate what memories you have of him. Spend some time with his family, share your memories with them. Come together and heal together. Lean on each other, support each other. Learn from his life and his death.
Visit him in your dreams and dont bury your love for him under your anger. Try to release it because it wont serve you well.


peace.
FunkyMonkey Reviewed by FunkyMonkey on . My Best Friend's Dead. Two days ago me and my friend's were stoned, chilling out, and playing x-box, when I heard my younger sister yelling for our stepdad to come quick. Curious I went and checked out what she was yelling for and she told me and my stepdad, that one out of my two best friends had killed himself, and she heard it from his girlfriend. I couldnt believe it, I grabbed the phone and called up a friend of his who confirmed it. I didnt know what to think, or feel. Im so fucking mad at him right now because Rating: 5