The life I lead is LOVE.

I try and remain positive, despite the unsightly 'bumps in the road' I seem to keep hitting. I can't catch the slightest break.

This year has not been an easy one at all. Probably one of my toughest, emotionally and mentally. Somehow, and don't ask me how, I am doing alright. I just feel good, inside. This is if I'm high or not, also. Sometimes I go days without smoking because I already feel great, like smoking would disrupt my mood that seems to have me lounging on Cloud 10. I'm high, and I feel good. I'm sober, and I feel good. My road ahead is definitely not looking too much better, but something inside me keeps me going, making me get up and out of bed each day. Life is waiting for me, and I feel like embracing it.

I easily could be in an *entirely* different situation right now. All I had to do was give in, throw all my cares away, and get into a serious drug/alcohol/promiscuity problem. I think being on this site has helped some, to be honest. Reading about so many people and learning about them has opened my world, and I truely enjoy some of you intellectuals who have me drooling over your posts. Cheers! ~