Hey man. That is shitty news.
First off I want you to know that even though you are going to be having all kinds of emotions right now, and rightfully so, and you have every right to wonder "why me?" the fact of the matter is that this one little phrase can and will hinder your healing and your recovery.
Im not saying that a snap of the fingers can change your outlook, especially when the news is so fresh ...but I do want to emphasize the need for you to work towards gaining a more positive outlook. This is so crucial to your healing that I cant stress it enough. I dont want to sound like an ass or insensitive because I feel quite the opposite though but I do want to make that point clear.
At 23, as the doctors have likely told you, your body is strong and you can strengthen in even more.
I dont know much about your specific type of cancer but I do know about the power of love, self healing, and positive energy.
A strong spirit will take you a long way.
I dont know about your beliefs in different healing techniques but there is room for learning if you dont know already about eastern and native american philosophies about dis-eases of the body and ways to reverse them, or to cope and adapt to them.
I am availlable to share all that I know. And my door is open if you would like to come here to retreat and heal. I dont know if you have read any of my posts about this place ("healing retreat") but I live on some healing lands in Ontario Canada. We offer a place to come to heal the mind body and spirit in many traditions. And, whatever we do not have here we can arrange to bring in. We can help to restore your energy and begin the path towards healing the whole. Or just a place to come and be surrounded by nature and get away for a while. A day, a week,whatever it takes.
Im not doing a $ales pitch here. Im opening our doors and our hearts and saying you are welcome to join us. Thats all.
If we can help you we are here to do it.
We can also help you to find these things in your own area if youre far off.
Other than that I offer my words and my prayers.
Keep the dialogue open to vent the shit out. Its all gotta go.


peace and love.



FM