(Heads up) This is gonna be a long thread.. so If you don't wan't to read some fucked up shit thats going in my life I suggest you go back now.

Well first before I get started I'd like to share a few things with you, so that you can understand me some what, and be in my shoes mentaly...

I'm 16 male, I live In Virginia I live with my grandma In a trailer we don't have much, I find myself without money and friends all I have thats worth telling is my computer, I love to high, I don't care what I have to do to reach it, It helps me get by without all the stress I embrace mentally, I was introduced to weed from a close friend, that dosen't chill with me anymore, I used to go out and get high with alot people, but now I have no one. No one comes around, It's like they don't think I exsist anymore.

I'm so addicted to getting high, but I have no money therefore, no high for me, so about the first of august(the mouth currently) I stole 3 loratab blue 10's from my grandma's pill bottle, she noticed and I was accused so I called a my friend that introduced me to weed, and told him I have so pills and asked If he wanted to do them with me.. He said sure so later that nigh we smoked like 2 bowl packs and did the pills. The next morning my grandma called my mom and she arranged a drug test for me today.. a piss test, so I know I failed it.. She said If theres anything In my drug test that I'm going to rehad and counciling, I told her that there is nothing you can do to make me go.. so she left back to her house.. shes called the cops on me before and has threatened to send me to Juvi, so it's hard to tell what shes going to do..

I know that I'm not straight in my head.. along with not having many friends and the fact that my father is serving 7 years in prison for drugs.. and past charges.. we live off welfere.. and schools starting up soon so I get picked on for not wearing the best of clothing and not having a car of anything.. I guess I'm depressed also.. but I don't wan't help, and I've told myself and everyone around me my mom family.. that I wan't change.. through boot camp or rehab or even Juvi.

I just want to live my life, I'm tired of all the walls trying to force me into living the way your suppose to, me and god knows theres no other way for me to live. I want to live the thug life, selling drugs doing them and living the bad side of life.

The stress of life has made me this way, theres nothing that can change that, the government caused this when they took my father away and left him a stanger to me everyday, now that hes not here we struggle to survive so I say the government hurt thereself when they did that, they may off removed one threat to there life, but they also caused another.. I'm gonna live the life crime and drugs. and no one can change that, my mom asked me will I ever change, I said yea but it's clear that I'll always be the same until my dieing days..

So many thoughts are going throught my head and so much emotion stress, you guys here at on the boards are all the support I can get at the moment.. what do you suggest I do.. and advice support at all will be appreciated.
Smirk Reviewed by Smirk on . Mental help needed. (Heads up) This is gonna be a long thread.. so If you don't wan't to read some fucked up shit thats going in my life I suggest you go back now. Well first before I get started I'd like to share a few things with you, so that you can understand me some what, and be in my shoes mentaly... I'm 16 male, I live In Virginia I live with my grandma In a trailer we don't have much, I find myself without money and friends all I have thats worth telling is my computer, I love to high, I don't care Rating: 5