Instead of worrying about finding some weed, I'd try to find some friends. And I'm not being mean or sarcastic, I'm being entirely serious. I know what it feels like to be alone, believe me. A lot of people do. But it's good for the soul to have a mate or someone to talk to and enjoy life with and to help you through.

We all have our problems but turning to weed doesn't solve them, and it sounds like you got a lot of problems bud. I'd focus more on working those out before creating more through the "drug life."