Mental help needed.

[Smirk]

(Heads up) This is gonna be a long thread.. so If you don't wan't to read some fucked up shit thats going in my life I suggest you go back now.

Well first before I get started I'd like to share a few things with you, so that you can understand me some what, and be in my shoes mentaly...

I'm 16 male, I live In Virginia I live with my grandma In a trailer we don't have much, I find myself without money and friends all I have thats worth telling is my computer, I love to high, I don't care what I have to do to reach it, It helps me get by without all the stress I embrace mentally, I was introduced to weed from a close friend, that dosen't chill with me anymore, I used to go out and get high with alot people, but now I have no one. No one comes around, It's like they don't think I exsist anymore.

I'm so addicted to getting high, but I have no money therefore, no high for me, so about the first of august(the mouth currently) I stole 3 loratab blue 10's from my grandma's pill bottle, she noticed and I was accused so I called a my friend that introduced me to weed, and told him I have so pills and asked If he wanted to do them with me.. He said sure so later that nigh we smoked like 2 bowl packs and did the pills. The next morning my grandma called my mom and she arranged a drug test for me today.. a piss test, so I know I failed it.. She said If theres anything In my drug test that I'm going to rehad and counciling, I told her that there is nothing you can do to make me go.. so she left back to her house.. shes called the cops on me before and has threatened to send me to Juvi, so it's hard to tell what shes going to do..

I know that I'm not straight in my head.. along with not having many friends and the fact that my father is serving 7 years in prison for drugs.. and past charges.. we live off welfere.. and schools starting up soon so I get picked on for not wearing the best of clothing and not having a car of anything.. I guess I'm depressed also.. but I don't wan't help, and I've told myself and everyone around me my mom family.. that I wan't change.. through boot camp or rehab or even Juvi.

I just want to live my life, I'm tired of all the walls trying to force me into living the way your suppose to, me and god knows theres no other way for me to live. I want to live the thug life, selling drugs doing them and living the bad side of life.

The stress of life has made me this way, theres nothing that can change that, the government caused this when they took my father away and left him a stanger to me everyday, now that hes not here we struggle to survive so I say the government hurt thereself when they did that, they may off removed one threat to there life, but they also caused another.. I'm gonna live the life crime and drugs. and no one can change that, my mom asked me will I ever change, I said yea but it's clear that I'll always be the same until my dieing days..

So many thoughts are going throught my head and so much emotion stress, you guys here at on the boards are all the support I can get at the moment.. what do you suggest I do.. and advice support at all will be appreciated.

Smirk Reviewed by Smirk on 08-10-2006. Mental help needed. (Heads up) This is gonna be a long thread.. so If you don't wan't to read some fucked up shit thats going in my life I suggest you go back now. Well first before I get started I'd like to share a few things with you, so that you can understand me some what, and be in my shoes mentaly... I'm 16 male, I live In Virginia I live with my grandma In a trailer we don't have much, I find myself without money and friends all I have thats worth telling is my computer, I love to high, I don't care Rating: 5

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the title of this thread pritty much sums it up.

[ronjohn420]

well im sorry man, for all your bad luck, it sounds like the outsiders (for those who know the book) anyways, do what i did. go to winn-dixie and get a job (i did at 14) work hard and run like hell......i hope this helps

ps. dont sell drugs to "survive" , i went to jail at 16 for that also

[FAllout]

If your that addictied go to rehab. If I ever need weed to fell normal or to get by I would admit myself.

After your out try getting on yuor feet and staying clean for a while.

Have a good day.

[chris40]

Well you are old enough to get a job, you should try to find one that doesn't require a car.

What part of VA you in?

[azure]

your gonna have to get a standard job if you go down a bad route or a good route cause you need some money to start off with, so i say get a job asap.
then maybe meet some people that are more down to earth in school than the ones that rip you about clothing and just keep in mind how stupid they actually are for doing that, societies real retards. maybe get some weed seed of people you meet in school? take it from there good luck

[Smirk]

"Don't want to be right" I like that, thanks for the replys guys.

[stothelutz]

I started working at 15 now im 16 got my car and am going to college. Start small and work your way up find what your good at and exploit it.

[Captain Jack Sparrow]

Instead of worrying about finding some weed, I'd try to find some friends. And I'm not being mean or sarcastic, I'm being entirely serious. I know what it feels like to be alone, believe me. A lot of people do. But it's good for the soul to have a mate or someone to talk to and enjoy life with and to help you through.

We all have our problems but turning to weed doesn't solve them, and it sounds like you got a lot of problems bud. I'd focus more on working those out before creating more through the "drug life."

[JMD]

grow