I know you said you don't like 9 to 5s, but seriously, get something easy. You're right; what you're going through isn't new to anyone. Most of us will tell you that it's a lot easier to handle knowing you got some steady income. You do music? Are you exposing your music in every available outlet? Are you on MySpace, are you doing club gigs, are you doing local battles? Get a plan, man. It doesn't get any easier...