Confusing relationships..

[birdgirl73]

Shoi, you mean you tend to be depressed and are also drawn to depressive types, too?

[shoi]

no im depressive and drawn to happy types

[birdgirl73]

Oh, that's good. That'll help. And certainly it'll be better than a pairing of double-depressives.

[shoi]

ya


the funny thing is, is that i can like analize my problems and wats causeing them and like almost take a step back and see whats going on in my head... but unfortunatly i cant bridge this

[birdgirl73]

Can't bridge it to your behavior, you mean? And changing that as a result of realizing what's going on?

[shoi]

ya... no changes even wen i no that i have no reason to be sad and i still have a chance at w/e

[birdgirl73]

Depression'll do that--and it'll make it hard to make adjustments or changes. And it'll show up in the way you feel even when you have no seeming reason to be sad. That's why it sucks. I know. I've struggled with depression at times, too. It's the worst.

[shoi]

that it is.... but im hesitant to rlly do anything abt it... like first i dunno where i could go since i dont speak the language of the place i live and i dont want to seem like im just an emo teenager who thinks they need to be on prozac or w/e

[birdgirl73]

Where do you live, hon?

[shoi]

tokyo