Quote Originally Posted by birdgirl73
I can tolerate you, believe me! If you can tolerate a slightly more establishment-looking 44-year-old tall teary-eyed woman, also fiercely over-protective of those she cares for, we'll be in good shape.

Let me ask you this, Daima, and I apologize if it's too personal. Do you find that the grief is getting better over time? Or is it just as bad now as it was in 1989 when she passed? I'm trying to prepare myself for what the next stage and the time afterwards will be like, strange as that may sound. My sister's starting to enter a period now where she's having enough pain that, in some ways, I think the end will be a relief. I know I'll be tremendously sad once it's over, but I'm can't believe it'll be as tremendously sad as it is now watching her endure this.

Peace and love, my friend. Peace and love.
We kept Dao pretty drugged up. She just stopped breathing one morning. I do believe that she welcomed her death. For me, some days are better than others. I have a cabin up in the mountains here in Northern California, and sometimes when i go up there by myself i get very very sad and lonely for her. I will be walking a trail and just scream out her name and start crying like a kid who was told the world just ran out of captain crunch cereal. To this day its hard to believe she is still gone. I have pretty much remained single since. I made my living in a music studio here in San Francisco as a studio musician/guitarist/fiddle player, and did some writing/co-writing.
I have a son and a daughter, along with a 3 grandkids. They started as early as i did. ohboy.
My son is currently in the Marines, and my daugter has went back to college down in Santa Clara California,@ Santa Clara University. I am pretty much a full time gramps.
I will keep your sister in my thoughts. I am not the prayer type at all, but i do consider the well being of others who face uncertainty in their lives.
Would you care to share her name with me?
If you ever feel like you need to vent, just consider myself available.
I found myself very very angry for the longest time, and still get quite pissed when i think about how Dao got cheated out of life, her kids, and her grand children.

Peace,
dai*ma