MY stoner days are bout over. i FINALLY saw a doctor. read

[StOneD.aS.FuK]

ok the past few days have been a new chapter in my life i finally got the courage to see a doctor, my anxiety, panic attacts, and depression were just gettin to bad for me to handle, because i smoked so much dope so heavy for almost 2 years i finally releised i have a mental illness.
im not soley blaming dope, i have had this before i even started smoking, but now its 10 times WORSE because of dope. and ive been drinking alot of alchol latley just to feel happy and sociable. im only 18 remember.

i was laying in my bed the night before i went to the doctor and my head was goin crazy, all i could think about were negitive thoughts, thoughts of hate and regret, yet i had nothing to worry about, nothing bad has happened, i had nothing at all to worry about yet i seriously felt like gettin a knife and killing someone or myself and everything wrong happening in the world just got to me.

i was feeling like this for a long time...but it was at that moment when i thought, nah fuck this shit i cant take it anymore, i need help and im going to see a doctor tomorrow. before i end up doing something stupit, lucky i had a few booklets around explaining the symotoms of anxitety disorder and depression. i had them all. that gave the the courage to finally see a doctor and also easier to explain to the doctor....


....my mental state got so bad i just had to drop out out my last year of school, i was failing every class and i would be stoned everyday, all day, with my freinds at school. i was having panic attacks in class and i could barly walk around the school campus with out being paranoid and my mind going crazy. it was impossible to get away from the dope because all my freinds wanted me to smoke with them, and i couldnt say no because i always felt the need to smoke it so i could feel "normal" again. so a few weeks ago i dropped out. i just couldnt take it, i didnt even have the courage to get my leavers form fully signed i just grabbed my shit said cya to my mates and walk away. i felt i had no choice.

all because of my fuckin mental state.

but its all good now i think, i pretty much gave my doctor the booklet and explained i dropped out of school and everything plus how i felt and he instantly prescribed me with KARMA 0.25mg to settle me down
plus i had to see him today which he prescribed me with ZOLOFT 50mg for panic disorder and depression, plus a blood test.
and to my suprise he said he would do it for free. i just had to pay the tablets ($13)

best Decision of my life ive been takin KARMA for a few days now and i alreaddy feel better. i can walk downtown now with out worries and my mind is clear. id rather it than dope.
i'll be gettin the zoloft tablets tomorrow and hopefully they will make me feel better again. my life is back on track for $13...now i dont need to abuse dope and Alcohol anymore, but i still love the bud dont get me wrong.


so if there is anyone like me out there please see a doctor before you fuck up your life completly.

thanks for reading.

StOneD.aS.FuK Reviewed by StOneD.aS.FuK on 08-04-2006. MY stoner days are bout over. i FINALLY saw a doctor. read ok the past few days have been a new chapter in my life i finally got the courage to see a doctor, my anxiety, panic attacts, and depression were just gettin to bad for me to handle, because i smoked so much dope so heavy for almost 2 years i finally releised i have a mental illness. im not soley blaming dope, i have had this before i even started smoking, but now its 10 times WORSE because of dope. and ive been drinking alot of alchol latley just to feel happy and sociable. im only 18 Rating: 5

[StOneD.aS.FuK]

haha, you are keen for a buzz. Havnt seen you on the boards in a while aye. Sounds like your in a bit of a crisis there.Mabey you shouldnt have downed that bottle of vicks, that would make a huge impact on whats happening in your life now... DXM fucks your body up pretty bad (im never gonna try it!). All i can say is once you start to impove, stop taking the pills, ask your doctor or something. how much of a heavy drinker were you? Hope your feeling better

yea havent seen u for a while too, where in aus u at again?
...and the vicks lol, yea i was a dxmholic a few months ago had like 6 bottles in one week...that fucked my insides real bad aye! i dont plan on tryin it for a while but its an awsome experence...espesh at the dentist haha. only prob is the robo walk. i drank alot of goon (nasty) but im off that now cause it got me in trouble.
but yea prob get really drunk every 3 days...and smoke smoke prob over 10 cones a day..everyday...at school as well, and ive mixxed weed and grog together alot and i know that can lead to problems. now its fuckin with my brainn

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[StOneD.aS.FuK]

i went to see the doctor yesterday casue he wants to see me every thursday to cheak up and see how its goin,
he simply asked if they were working yet, and if the karma are making me relaxed, i said, yea kinda, so he pretty much doubled my dose anyway and said he gave a very low dose to start off with cause he wanted to see if my body would reacted badly to them, which they didnt so he upped the dose. but yea i dunno bout taking heaps of xdep because he said it takes a month for the full effects of it to kick in, but i recon 5 karma tablets would mellow me out like shit. but i wont do it as i dont have many left... im still smokin weed everyday i had some nothern lights at school the other day and this chon bush for the past 2 days with a mate....its too hard to stop but i dont have anymore tha 5 cones a day so im just cuttin down. im feeling great atm though.

[YouD0nt]

Dude, I think thats great that you got your life turned around for the better! Have a good rest-of-your-life!

[smok3y]

Damm dude thats some heavy shit right there, Suks that your head got mashed even worse with the dope.. Hope you get better soon.:thumbsup:

[benagain]

Good to hear you got some much needed help :thumbsup:
I hope everything works out for you

[Oneironaut]

There's a prescription drug called Karma?

[StOneD.aS.FuK]

thanks all of you :thumbsup:

respect

& Oneironaut, yes there is would u like a photo

[souldistortion]

That sucks man. I can't belive you were in that bad of a mental state, thats pretty scary bro. lay off the alcohol and keep your smoking to a minimum. Alcohol will for sure destroy your life, i dont know about the connections between bud and your mental state though.

[Oneironaut]

& Oneironaut, yes there is would u like a photo

Nah, I think I've seen it before. I saw this one guy trying to get some schoolchildren to snort it once. Then he got hit by a bus.