Even if she not going to know your going to brake up with her. Yes it is still fucked up by all means. If you honestly love her you would still want to be with her and not thinking of brakeing up with her for some other girl. What if things dont work out in the end. Always rember what you lost. Some one that will be there for you. You will regret it. Not everyone is going to wait on you. If you move on so will she. So just ask your self this. "When I get to college. What if things don't work out"