Hi Ghost..lol

The thing is, one can never totally exclude themselves from society - the implanted programming will not allow you - nor will the society in which you live. And it is a sad existence.

I am 35 years old, and during my life I have experienced a hell of alot of stuff - it is with this experience and knowledge of life that I have arrived at the conclusion that (although I am not alone in the way that I feel) I do not 'fit-in' to the protocol.
I agree with your sentiment about the 'drone mentality' exhibited by those around you, and I too become exhasperated by their level of 'closed-mindedness'. I think that I have become an 'intellect snob', and find it difficult to tolerate those people who cannot think outside of the box - or even see the sociopathic manipulation that they (and indeed the world) are being subjected to. Recent world-wide events typify the level of brain-washing that is going on. Or am I just being paranoid?

I look around me at the practices of Man, and wonder at our short-sightedness. I despair at the fact that the evidence of our global desecration is plain to see, and yet we choose to continue regardless, for the sake of making a buck. What about the future?
I cannot understand how one human being can willingly cause harm and distress to another human being. And yet, we only have to turn on our TV, to witness it on a world-wide scale - everyday.

Selfishness and greed has blinded us to the bigger picture, and soon, we shall suffer the consequences of our actions.

Basic rule of physics: Every action has a reaction. Cause and effect, if you like

As I say, my life has had many episodes, and my decision to exist in this world, rather than live in it, is based upon those experiences and my dwindling sufferance of what we have become.

Sorry, I am bitter, but I play the game on MY terms now (as much as I can).
I exist within 3 planes:
The first plane is actual reality - I need a job and other people to survive (cursed money! lol)
The second plane is immediate reality - family life and interaction with like-minded friends (like your good selves )
The third plane is my reality - and this place can get pretty dark at times.

All I am saying, I guess, is that you have yet to experience a great many things - as we all have - and whilst your thinking exhibits insight, I would advise you to post-pone your exclusion from society for a while longer yet
Rather, keep in mind your observations and continue as you are - just be more aware of the subliminal programming, and turn that knowledge to your advantage, ie, don't allow yourself to be drawn into the drone-mentality and remain true to yourself.

As for pursuing a 'hobby' in writing - go for it!
I spent alot of my time writing stuff, especially when I was at my darkest - it helped me to understand myself, as well as the world around me. But NEVER let your darkness consume you lol

Here is an example of my darkness...

RES IS DEAD

Out of the darkness from whence I resided,
A difficult choice that I have decided,
Of pain that I have caused, and has been done unto me,
No more, I tell you, in this, my decree.

The path to enlightenment, which I thought had been clear,
Prophecy and destiny, theories I had held dear,
Have all turned to rot now, no more than a lie,
The will to continue is ready to die.

The sadness weighs heavy in my faintly beating heart,
No more of this world do I want to be a part,
The last of my days I will spend on my own,
Until Death comes to get me, and the exit be shown.

Do not mourn for me, people, nor pass a fleeting care,
I betrayed the very fabric of the morals I spoke clear,
My spirit is broken, and hope lost forever,
I was just very stupid, when I thought I was clever.

The pedestal that I stood upon lies in tiny little bits,
Smashed into insignificance by my own lack of wits,
How foolish I look now, atop this sorry pile of stone,
Just desserts, I guess, I deserve to be alone.

No longer shall I tarry, in this painful world of Man,
Nor waste any effort on my fruitless, future plan,
My time here is over, the pain so nearly done,
"Well done, 'Higher Being', you've very nearly won!"

I thought that I was part of a complicated plan,
Judged and overseen by a bearded holy man,
Thinking that my efforts would be an asset to my life,
That would somehow contribute to the easing of my strife.

The light almost past, and darkness growing deeper,
Arms outstretched, I embrace the Soul Keeper,
The chill of death feels welcome and complete,
As I succumb to my failings and defeat.

Back to the Darkness of sadness and pain,
The Res Spirit fades, never seen again,
No life flows through the vessel left instead,
There is no doubt, Res is truly dead.

lol...yep, I was pretty dark then...

Res...