Had a very bad experience for the first time.

[NoLeafClover717]

Let me preface this by saying I have had a decent amount of depression and anxiety issues my whole life off and on, landing me in the hospital for a few weeks once. It runs in the family. I'm 22 and smoked a little off and on when i was around 18, and then around 20. A couple months ago I started smoking again, almost every day off and on. All I've ever really smoked before the other night was mids because it's all I could ever get and wasn't a big enough smoker to need dank yet. Well, the other night i got a small sack of some kind buds. That night I was alone and bored so I smoked a couple bowls. I've gotten pretty blazed off mids before, but this was different. I didn't necessarily feel like I was more stoned than ever, but it obviously was different as I'll explain in a second. At first all was tight and I felt the same way I always did when I was high but then my mind wandered into a bad area. I've been stoned and wandered into bad areas before, but my mind was always so unfocused at the time that I've been able to distract myself with something else to get my mind off whatever fucked up thing I was thinking about. Not this time. Somehow I got to think about my parents dying. From then on it was a pure nightmare and was of the most fucked up experiences of my entire life. I started playing out these scenarios over and over in my head and could not think of anything else. I kept seeing bad bad things in my head (id rather not get into details), and at this point I was very blazed, even though I only smoked a couple bowls. Well it got to the point where I had to call home and talk to my mom (I had to tell thme I loved them because in my head I thought if I didn't something bad was about to happen). I'm close with my parents but I don't share my feelings a lot with them in person. Well I called my mom told her what was going on and just lost it, crying my eyes out telling her and my dad how much I loved them and how I wouldn't know what to di without them blah blah. My hwole body froze up and I felt like my limbs were gone and couldnt move them. That wasn't a concern though, I was just trying to shake the bad feelings and thoughts I was having. I was clearly in a bad panic attack at this point. I stayed on the phone with my mom for a little bit and she tried to talk me through it and calm me down but it didn't really do much. I just kept bawling and telling them how much I loved them (it actually turned out to be a great moment between us in that sense). Well I eventuaqlly got off the phone with her and turned on the tv and forced myself to pick up my guitar to try and distract myself. The panic attack lasted about a half hour, and after that I got online and it got better and turned into my normal feeling high, but I was still upset and couldnt shake some of the bad feelings. That was 2 nights ago, and I'm still kinda upset over it. I mean obviously it's over but I still can't get a few of those thoughts out of my head, but it seems to be going away. So now I'm pretty scared to smoke again. I def. won't be smoking anything higher than mids for a while, and I'm not sure if I'll continue smoking period. I have a quarter of mids left but am worried about smoking. Should I wait a couple more days and smoke some mids? I was thinking maybe just one hit at a time to see how it feels. What do you guys think? I love smoking but I don't want those feelings to come back. Was it just the chron? Maybe with mids Iwon't get that blazed and won't have a problem? What do you guys think?

Sorry about no paragraphs, I'm lazy.

Thanks guys.

NoLeafClover717 Reviewed by NoLeafClover717 on 07-21-2006. Had a very bad experience for the first time. Let me preface this by saying I have had a decent amount of depression and anxiety issues my whole life off and on, landing me in the hospital for a few weeks once. It runs in the family. I'm 22 and smoked a little off and on when i was around 18, and then around 20. A couple months ago I started smoking again, almost every day off and on. All I've ever really smoked before the other night was mids because it's all I could ever get and wasn't a big enough smoker to need dank yet. Well, the Rating: 5

[BongZoola]

Um. Whoa.

[geoffrowley19]

thast prolly one of the worst expereinces ive heard of someone having from 2 bowls of ganja but u prolyl jsu got really high cuz u hadnt smoked in two years and reverse tolerance is quite amazing