and thats what were doing trust me. ive been tring to change pcp for some time. we missed our appt for a new one a few days ago because of mis communication (it was the 7th and we thought 17th) but still they should have called us to remind us just like every other damn doc does. last night my mom got 15mg of morphine. i just woke up and asked her how she feels and she said terrible. her head hurts worse and her body is sore. guess what she said next? will you take me to verhaagg(our evil pcp) if i get us in? i asked for what? she said another shot. i said wow man...he isnt going to give you 15. probably just 10. so why even go when 15 isnt helping?

for the first time im losing hope in this situation. the problem with our pcp is this though, my mom used to work in medicine thats where she met verhaagg. he's been our pcp for many many years and he just acts like he fix everything with a pill. my mom says i have a headache. so someone drives her there and gets a shot in the butt and send us on our way. he doesnt listen to us. but he does listen to her pleas. her wanting of other drugs. it makes me sick.

the problem with these pills is that once there in your system they make their coarse. unlike smoking where i think you can regulate more. smoking is immediate or very soon compared to waiting 30 minutes for 2 pills...then taking another 2 or 3 cuz its not working. thats what my mom does. she is constantly asking what day is it? morning or night time? she'll take her night pills twice sometimes cuz she wakes up at 4am and thinks its 9pm.