Hey dude my grandparents were like my real parents. I used to live with them and help them out. they both passed away recently and it really sucks cuz grandparents kick ass. Enjoy the time you spend with them. Like you the rest of my family doesnt like me much. They thought I was just taking advantage of my grandparents when really I cared deeply for them.

Hopefully you can find something positive to do with your time. something that's positive both physically and mentally. Also find something your good at and able to make a decent living off of would help you alot. Atleast for me even though I'm currently unemployed. I'm a carpenter and there is nothing like working a full day and coming home and relaxing. It's just a really good feeling of accomplishment.

Maybe taking a break from toking is what you need. Just try to keep a positive outlook on life. I have taken a few breaks from toking and I find exercise is a great stress reliever and makes you fel better about yourself. That's just me. hope it works out for you...Peace