Haze, I feel for your sense of loss. I know the feeling of losing a father. I lived it myself when I was 14.
I wish there was some way I could provide some comfort to you but all I have is words. We have words, and a feeling in our heart that we want to share with you but that alone will never heal the wounds you have right now.
Time will do that, time and understanding and above all love.
We can try to share our love with you with our words and hope that somehow it may reach the part of you that needs it most.
Words cannot truly express this but we will try. We will try because we can all relate on some level and those of us who have not lost a parent or a close loved one can imagine the feelings you must have inside you right now.
We all feel connected to something like this.
So even though some of our words might seem hollow and empty and meaningless compared to what you are facing, know that they are sent to you with a deep sincerity.
Read our words when you are able and imagine that your circle of support grows with each word you read. Each word represents love for you and a desire to take some of your suffering from you.
Use us as a place to speak the things you might not be able to with your friends and family. Use us to vent the darkness if you wish.
We are here for you to help you in whatever way you feel we can.
Ask and you will recieve my friend. We are not all just strangers on the other end of wires and cables, we are people who care.
We are here man, with our words, our hearts and our souls.

peace and love and understanding.

I will say a prayer for you and your family.
Know that oyour father can still hear you and feel you and his love will never be gone from your life. You are his child and that bond can never be broken, and that relationship is everlasting.

FM