I dont know what to say, there isn't really anything to say to make it better really
unfortunately this is the most true statment said in this thread so far... and it just plain sucks... i know it's true because the family memeber i loved the most was taken away...

i don't know what to say either, i never do... we're a community and i do care, i know it hurts, even if we weren't a community, it still hurts anyone... and i just want to take that pain away, but i can't... da haze, just because your dad was mad at you when he went to sleep, doesn't mean he's mad at you now, very much the opposite this i'm positive of. don't dwell on the fact that 'it's your fault' or 'he hated me when he died' because it will eat at you and eat at you, til there's nothing left to eat and you're just a void of anger and hate, and i know you're better then that...