i really want to thank everyone for the help. The fact that you all took time out of your day to help a random 18 year old in florida about a relationship is remarkable. There is one part of our breakup that is eating me alive inside. She told me shes still in love with me and loves me but cannot be with me. That is killing me because i still deeply love her and i know she loves me back and i cant be with her. I almost wish she told me she fell for another guy or lost interest in me it would probably be less painfull.