I cant do that, part of me wants to but i just cant. The other part of me wants to do something heroic like in the movies and come back and get her back and make thigns happily ever after. Im so confused and sad and upset i feel like my heart got ripped out of me. I cant just delete her from my life. Weve talked everyday for over a year and we dated for over year. Ive spent soo much of my life with her i cant just end it and pretend it never happened. Im thinking about writing her an email thanking her for are relationship and for what she gave me in terms of love, herself, her soul etc.. and expressing to her i want to remain close. I was just in the middle of typing it and exited out because i feel it is way too soon for that. Shes supposed to be calling me tonight but i dont know if thats just gonna make it worse or whatnot. Im sick over this i cant believe this happened to us I had everything i ever wanted. I cant just delete her from my life i dont know what i want to do. I dont even know if i want to get back together or not because when we eventually breakup i dont want to feel this same pain and sadness again.