im kinda going through the same thing as you. It's a shock, and you'll always think of the memories, i know i do. I dont think i'll ever really get over my ex.

But like people told me, best way is to take your mind off of it, channel the upset anf frustration into something productive.

And dont wank over her, i did it with my ex and it bought back too many memories, then i got my screen sticky

And dont worry man, no one will laugh at you. I think everyone has gone through something like this. Well, lost someone very suddenly