i'll god damn drink a bottle of whiskey and then go back to work the next damn day. it doesn't matter if you are hung-over like fuck and throw up or any damn think like that. i do some very physically demanding shit too, and it damn sure hurts, but if you got to survive then you got to suck it up.

drinking works man, if you want to be in a blurr for a while, but thats the extent of it. sometimes i get mean and shit too, which isn't good for the family you know. i made a committment to keep it under control, which is really the only way to use any substance.

im glad you went on a hike dude, thats cool, nothing like the outside and fresh air to make you realize that these computers are honestly worthless and hold no true value of what really exists in this world.

phone sex is worthless. if shes not good enough to say it to your face then you ought not to let her feed that shit to you over the phone....

im a mean evil bastard once you betray me though.

best of luck, and all you have to do to get through is be a man. and now that you are stay that way, a man has got to work.

Dion