I'm stunned that nobody here has offered the advice for you go see a therapist Lip.

At a minimum I would tell you to go to Alanon, thats AA's cousin, if you know someone else that is an alcoholic its for you.

Unlike AA you can do whatever drugs/drinking you want, I've been and I can tell you that it helps beyond belief to be able to get yer shyt out on to others and have help carrying it.

Matter of fact I still go to a Therapist and I more than likely will keep going till I'm more than thru with my divorce.



http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/

Go to this link man, it just might save yer life. Then again if yer not at the bottom yet, what ive typed probably wont mean anything to you.

Whatever you choose good luck to ya man.