It was a hard thing for me to overcome. I think what also helped was that I was visiting my father and sisters last month in Alabama. My father and I talked and while his preference was to have a blood child, really, he just wants grandchildren and gave his 'blessing' (in his silent, country, unassuming manner) towards adoption. Talking with my grandfather just sealed the deal and of course the wife is absolutely thrilled that I've relented. But yeah, there are too many children that need homes, parents, love. Everyone should have the same opportunities to 'make it'.