I'm in the same situation as you are, man. I know what I want to do in college, and I want to pursue that course but I'm being pushed out of the house, and I can't even find a job. The rent is moving away to some warm state, won't say where stupid bitch, and is expecting me to pretty much make everything on my own, except for half of tuition, which is a big help in the long run, I know.

But, it hurts not being able to find a job anywhere, mostly because the place of my college is 40 minutes away and its really really hard to get gas money and stuff to go there without a job, ya know?! It's just a fucking vicious cycle, and shit is so screwed up in my life, I feel the same way. I'd rather be killed in the army then commit suicide, but I hate the army just as much as I hate suicide. I don't want to be under the command of Bush, so I decided no matter what I wouldn't join the army until he is out of office.