Hi there.
I wrote out a 'prayer' for you and burned it in a ceremonial fire on tuesday night while the full moon was high in our sky.
It was a wonderfully peaceful night and the air was rich with the feeling of the energy of the new lunar cycle. I felt it was an appropriate time to send the prayers for your renwal up on the smoke.
I have been thinking of you and hope that you are feeling in better spirits and more grounded.
My heart is warmed at reading the steps you have taken to regain some balance in your life. Every step forward is a step in the right direction.
Change is often hard but it is the only way towards growth.
I struggle with this myself sometimes. I need reminders occasionally.
As you go on your walks I am sure you will find that in your internal dialogue you will start to find answers to your questions.
You hold most of your answers inside you.

The white butterflies that you have been noticing are not likely a mere 'coincidence' ( ugh I dislike that word)
I dont know if you have much knowledge of animal totems and their signifigance in teaching us but this is what I know of butterflies:
( I suspect you will find some relevance in this)

Butterflies represent change and metamorphasis/ shapeshifting in our lives. When we are visited by this totem, we should make note of important issues confronting us at the moment. This is likely why we have noticed them around us. We should examine what changes we need to make and to keep in mind what we wish the outcome to be.
Rmember that there is purpose behind our metemorphasis. We have a goal and set a path to reach this goal.
We may feel like we struggle in vain sometimes but envision the eventual emergance as a beautiful butterfly one day. We will not always be what we are today. We constantly change and adapt.
In various times throughout history and in various cultures and religions the butterfly represented the soul and unfettered joy and bliss.
In the native american tradition it represents change, joy and colour in our lives. They can remind us not to take things too seriously and awaken a sense of lightness and joy.
They also can remind us that change is good for us, and inevitable if we wish to evolve beyond our current state of being and understanding.
Change does not have to be traumatic but can be gentle, sweet and rewarding. It will lead us to a new way of expressing and enjoying life.
Butterfly can remind us that growth and change are all part of the cycle of life and that to resist it we fight forces beyond our control.
To be what we are here to be, we must embrace change. We must evolve. And, as we evolve we become even more beautiful creatures.

I thought that this is signifigant to what you are experiencing in your life right now. So, take the lessons of the butterfly into your heart.

Be confidant poorprincess. The medicine of this totem is within you, and around you.



If ever you need it, my email is :

sage_wisdom(at)hush.com

peace and love.

FM