i made a batch of pot brownies, and i guess they were stronger than i thought. i ate 1.5 brownies, and after an hour i wasn't high. so.. i went to sleep. i wake up completely fucking out of it. i was shaking uncontrollably, and muttering to myself. complete nonsense even. mostly numbers and odd words. i tried several times to just concentrate on my breathing, but then i would get scared that i couldn't breathe and that i wasn't really breathing i was just imagining breathing. then i threw up. then after i threw up, i sat on the floor rocking back and forth like a mental patient. i didn't think i was going to die.. i thought i did die and was in hell. my perspective was off.. every time i blinked it was like i saw the room through different eyes. every now and again i would feel completely sober, and then fall back into whatever it was that i was feeling. i tried to just go to sleep but then i started shaking again.

eventually i fell asleep, but i didn't feel right for 2 days. i'm scared to even smoke again. every time i think about it i start feeling anxious and scared. it's probably just 'all in my head', but i really freaked out like i've never freaked before. i'm one of those generally centered people, so this was fucking awful. lol.