I hear that. I suddenly became a dad and that pulled me up before I was ready. gave a whole lot of other opportunities and was for the better.Psycadelics had played havoc with my seratonin levels and i needed hard escapes so i turned to drinking and was playing with needles. I hated anti depressants coz they were just another pill to abuse. 10 zoloft was nice and floaty.
Still smoke but i reckon when my little mateys grown up i'll get into some mushies and other plants of wonder again.
Even now i have to watch how much i smoke coz ot can drain my motivation and keep me from doing what i wanna coz i get too lazy.