amen sensiride, thanks for the post. you have no idea

ive had some weird stuff happening to me lately.
im alright as long as i stay sober, then i smoke, and it all goes down.
while im high im cool, but as i come down, i crash hard and for a long time (days).

ill be out with friends, and ill crash so hard i wont be able to communicate. people say stuff, and i wont find anything to reply to it, weird eh?
so i just lay low and stay quiet, and get even more down.

looks like 5-htp will be a great aid. thanks so much.

bless your heart sweet buns