Im sorry there is nothing i can do to help, but i do know what its like to worry about anger, please do me a fabor and fake smile, trust me it helps, think of your, think of your child, think of anything right now that can make you happy, and keep that thought there, because you dont want to do anything you might regret later, as good as it will feel to break this kid physically remember the damage he can do financially/whatever if he gets the cops involved, Youll get through this friend

God Bless You