since i know no one, and am paraniod, i won't go out and ask for a dealer, he just kinda of presented himself through a mutual friend and he usually knows good hook ups, and i've done like atleast 50 'trasactions' through him, only two ever being a problem, one wasn't his fault, one involved police, a even more shady friend blah blah.... long story short he's proved himself in the past (and would even go to extreniouating (sp) circumstances/problems just to get what i asked) but my theory is now that he borke my bong he plans on dis-a-fucking-pearing which makes it all the worse.. i gave him 20 dollars to go get me 4 bars and 10$ worth the weed.... been atleast 5 hours now, hasn't showed up, so i know he just took my shit... omfg i have high blood pressure at 20 and this is only (probably) making it way worse, i had a shitty fucking day, i'm in a really horrible mood, i got prescribed darvocets for my teeth pain, but nothing for my goddamned anxiety (i have fainted in a dentist's chair i've even when fucking blind for 10 mins JUST THINKING about my trip to the dentist that day, and i got nothing... so i'm going to have to get 6 teeth pulled, and 3 'repairs' all without anxiety medicine with i desperately need (which is why i wanted the bars in the first place) omg everytime i think abou tthis i get so much more fucking pissed....

a forenote to anyone who says anything negative to this thread: FUCK YOU, this a ranting/venting thread, i'm not looking to be pissed off even more worrying about responding to some negative asshat's response....