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Hey, guys, I feel really bad for bumping this after so long, but I don't know what to do. It's been a month, but I still cry every single night. She already has a new boyfriend, some kid named Thyler.

I don't know what to do anymore. I think maybe I should go to the doctor and try anti-depressants or something, because I don't think I can handle this anymore. It's just been getting worse this past week. I've just been getting so much like how I was before I started smoking weed.

Like, I started cutting myself again. I know how fucking stupid that is, I know how retarded it is and pathetic, but I can't stop. I'll just sit in my room and cry or cut myself. It's fucking sick, and it's fucking morbid but I can't stop. It's like nothing will end this pain anymore but death. I'm not suicidal, I will never kill myself, but I pray so hard that something will kill me. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't see the reason to even get up out of fucking bed any more. I just lay in bed or sit in my chair listening to music with a sheet over my window.

Is it supposed to hurt this long? Should I still cry every night because of her after a month? I need someone to be there for me and with me right now, and I'm very sorry if I bumped this and it pissed you off. I just feel so alone.
You are trying to erase what can't be erased.

In one way or another, you are going to have those thoughts, what could've? What should've? It's over man. She doesn't love you. If she did, she would be standing by your side in one way or another. How do you know you truly love her? Is it to feel a feeling of void in your life?

I tend to stay away from relationship and sexual issues because it's such a fragile issue for me. I see from your posts you are a soul tortured, wanting to be free from these agonizing thoughts. I been in your shoes, tantilizing thoughts, dreams and wishes. It fades with time, but how long depends on you.

Don't rely on self-destructive behavior to let your emotions out. Focus on changing yourself for the better. You have this energy from pain within you that is stronger motivation than anything you will embark. Don't let go to waste. Whatever you dislike about yourself, work to change it. Desires to change with such emotional pain can prove to be beneficial. Example, start working out. Find a new hobby. Start a business. You have emptied your pallette. Nothing better than a fresh start.

From your post, I can tell this woman wasn't right for you. I liken her behavior to a monkey. She holds on to one vine, and won't let go until she holds another, in other words, she found greener pastures in her opinion. That's certainly not the type of girl I would want to be going out with. It shows from the insecurities you have about her. I'm not saying this is truly who she is, this is based on your words.

Live your life to the fullest. Don't wallow, because it accomplishes nothing. Be a better man. Don't give her reasons to validate why she broke up with you. Make her regret it, and in time, you can find a woman who appreciates you for who you are. Fuck around. Enjoy the time you have being single, because it isn't as bad as people make out to be.

Find someone who can furfill your life, rather than be your life. Good luck man. What comes with struggles comes with rewards, only if you try :thumbsup:
thcbongman Reviewed by thcbongman on . Well, She Left Me... So, I guess this is another vent thread. Sorry I'm wasting up space, but I need to get it out and its 2:30 am and I'm all alone and I really can't handle it. Been with this girl for 9 months now and last night we get into an argument and I say some things that I don't mean because she was going out with her friends on the anniversary of my uncle's suicide. I told her it'd mean a lot to me if she stayed home, but she left anyway, so I yelled at her and said that I hated her and it pissed me off Rating: 5