Gothen,

As a person who has been in the very same situation as yourself (I, being in a relationship of 7 months), I can't help but relate to you with empathy and compassion.

Brother i know it hurts and I know it will still hurt for a long time, but we have all been there and we all will be there sooner or later. the best advice i can give you is to play it cool with her, and don't hope for anything. that might sound discouraging, but it will only drive you crazy. show her that you are the strong one. dont obsessively call her, write her email, etc.. that would not help you two in any sense. why? because it isn't properly communicating. Even if you told her how upset you were, explaining to her in precise detail what it is that you are feeling, she still wouldn't understand it. This is because everybody has their own perceptions... you feel me ?

Let me give you some history about myself. I was with this girl for 7 months, and before that, I had considered her one of my best friends. Our relationship started out sweet, and ended bitterly. In short, I caught her fucking some other guy when I went over to surprise her. Guess who got the surprise?

Upon discovering her fucking this disgusting fat guy, she then laughed in my face, called me crazy, and told me to get the fuck away from her forever. She never called me since then, and we haven't even talked that much. She left me, for another guy. Obviously, I could not help but feel betrayed, hurt, and very very suicidal. Then it occured to me, some months later, that this bitch was indeed a waste of time, that her tits were really gross, that she wasn't worth sucking my energy anymore, and that she really wasn't perfect. Did it drive me to the point of mental insanity, knowing that she was laughing with some OTHER guy? Did it drive me mad knowing that some OTHER guy was fucking her, that she might even be ENJOYING fucking this other guy??? Yes! Of course it did. And then I realized, she was just a person.

Believe me brother, I felt the most love and trust for this person , as opposed to any other person. I thought she was my soul mate, and it all crumbled apart. What is my point, other than telling you how shitty my life was? I can honestly say that what won't kill you, <b>WILL</B> make you <b>STRONGER</b>. This is the turning point in your life. One day, you will be happy that you didn't stay with her forever. One day, you will see that your life is all falling into place the way it should be. No matter how much it hurts, you must persevere, and look to yourself to find the inner strength. It can only come from you.

You were a whole person before you ever met her, and , while you might be feeling like a mere shell of a man at this ever-temporary point of time, just know deep down that, after all the long suffering, you will once again rise up and become as solid as a rock. I swear to you.

Maybe the Buddhist point of view can help you out. The Buddhists (rightly) believe that suffering is caused directly from attachment. To free yourself from suffering, one must separate himself from desire and attachment. If you take that advice, and reasonably apply it to your life, it might work for you, as it has worked for me so many times before.

Don't worry man, life will work out. Someday you won't even think about this break-up. Someday you won't even think about posting on cannabis.com, and you won't remember me, and you won't remember your friends from high school, college, your jobs , very well. Just keep that in mind, when life gets you down; it's all temporary. You have the strength within yourself to make the best of it

Stay up, we are all human, and we have all felt your situation. Even if you think anyone couldn't possibly understand how you are feeling, trust me; we ain't that different from eachother. we're ALL human, and naturally we react the same to similar situations (in this context, that is).

This is called the grieving process, and it is a very natural response to such situations. Cry all you want, learn to cope with your feelngs. in the end, you will understand yourself better, you will become a better person. your future awaits

edit: i used to cut myself ,and did so while with my ex and after the breakup. i don't do that anymore , since i find it pointless, but it's not good. it's very unpleasant to die, accidentally, from bleeding to death.