Hey, guys, I feel really bad for bumping this after so long, but I don't know what to do. It's been a month, but I still cry every single night. She already has a new boyfriend, some kid named Thyler.

I don't know what to do anymore. I think maybe I should go to the doctor and try anti-depressants or something, because I don't think I can handle this anymore. It's just been getting worse this past week. I've just been getting so much like how I was before I started smoking weed.

Like, I started cutting myself again. I know how fucking stupid that is, I know how retarded it is and pathetic, but I can't stop. I'll just sit in my room and cry or cut myself. It's fucking sick, and it's fucking morbid but I can't stop. It's like nothing will end this pain anymore but death. I'm not suicidal, I will never kill myself, but I pray so hard that something will kill me. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't see the reason to even get up out of fucking bed any more. I just lay in bed or sit in my chair listening to music with a sheet over my window.

Is it supposed to hurt this long? Should I still cry every night because of her after a month? I need someone to be there for me and with me right now, and I'm very sorry if I bumped this and it pissed you off. I just feel so alone.