It doesent matter anymore, we arent friends anymore. Lifes to hard on hima nd he thinks hes bringing everyoen down with him. But hes not we just care and want to help him. But he says that he is goign to stay away from me because he knows how much i like him and he doesent want to hurt me. I mean emotionally. He says that hes better off alone and he said sorry about a couple thousand times. I mean damn it, hes getting better really and its because of me! He needs me, and he doesent want me. I mean he wants me but he doesent think i should want him becaus ehes scared hes gunna hurt me.

And yes I am totally a jhonen fan! Not those fans that want crazy sex with him, just a big fan.