Falling for my dealer

[Darkneon420]

I know most of you dont wanna hear about some 16 yr old crushing on her best friend but im confused and i need some advice. I met my best friend about a month ago, we clicked mostlly because of marijuanna. Since im one of his biggest customers he and I have been tight. I am finding myself thinking about him all the time. Why? Cuz i love him? No i dont love him but he has problems. He is homicidal and suisidal. He made me cry this weekend saying he was gunna kill himself. I was scared, i had never seen him liek this before and what i hear from his ex he does it alot. He knows i care and that i have feeling for him and hes usually understandable about my feelings, but he made me cry. Hes really sick, i wanna tell soemone but im scared he would hate me. He would despise me, and i really care about him. What should i do?

Darkneon420 Reviewed by Darkneon420 on 09-27-2004. Falling for my dealer I know most of you dont wanna hear about some 16 yr old crushing on her best friend but im confused and i need some advice. I met my best friend about a month ago, we clicked mostlly because of marijuanna. Since im one of his biggest customers he and I have been tight. I am finding myself thinking about him all the time. Why? Cuz i love him? No i dont love him but he has problems. He is homicidal and suisidal. He made me cry this weekend saying he was gunna kill himself. I was scared, i had Rating: 5

[smokey]

u need to talk him into getting counselling if u go behind his back to help he will hate u for it u need to talk to him about your concerns n see if u can persuade him to sort himself out

[Darkneon420]

He hurt me today again, not on purpose btu he still makes me want to cry. I have talked to him and asked what he would do if soemone handed him to the Mental h. He said he'd hate them and despise them and kill them. But hes really downa nd scaring the shit out of me. I wanna help him but yet again i dont want him to hate me. He can kill me...just dont let him hate me....

[Imotep]

Ive heard and seen this story a lot of times.
get a pet, a fucked up suicidal homicidal drug dealing dude is more maintenance than most people can handle.
"but he doesnt have anyone else" i hear u say.
yeah coz he's burnt em all and yr next in line.

"he can kill me, just dont let him hate me" then again maybe youz'll make a nice sid & nancy.

[KillaBuzz]

yah get outta that shit

[bigdaddy420]

Usually, I'm not the type of person to get into someone's personal business, but I would say get out of it. My sister went through a similar situation, but the guy used to beat her too. It took a lot of courage but my sister life him and has been happy since. I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but I suggest you think about whether you really want to be around someone like that or not.

[sawleaf]

Ive heard and seen this story a lot of times.
get a pet, a fucked up suicidal homicidal drug dealing dude is more maintenance than most people can handle.
"but he doesnt have anyone else" i hear u say.
yeah coz he's burnt em all and yr next in line.

"he can kill me, just dont let him hate me" then again maybe youz'll make a nice sid & nancy.

True I have seen this also. You are right. Sounds like he is just a negative person who likes to get attention. Don't waste your time with him. Stay away from him and find a dealer who is stable in the head. Your feelings will fade and you will feel better.

[Darkneon420]

Oh god no! He would never hurt me. He loves me to much. We are best friends and we are there for eachother and hes gettin better. I introduced him to JTHM whihc he just loves to read and draw the charactors. Hes alot better, today he was so hyper and happy i was so glad i've made a diffrence. I was really down yesterday and crying and he made me feel so much better. he sat with me for an hour and we talked about my shit. he just cares alot and i care alot and i think im falling. Real hard. I know he wouldent really hurt anyone hes just lost and confused. And i dont appreciate soem of your replys. I dont think you understand. But thanks to those who have been supportive and not judgmental of my own commen sence thank you very much!

[sawleaf]

And i dont appreciate soem of your replys. I dont think you understand. But thanks to those who have been supportive and not judgmental of my own commen sence thank you very much!

Why did you ask for advice then? Did you think 100% of people will agree with you??? I hope you did make the right decision, but you are young and we don't know you, so who really knows if you did or not? Next time don't bother asking for advice if you don't want to get it.

[Darkneon420]

No actually i was asking for advice weither or not i should get him help, but now i know all he needs is his friends love. Its cool that ya dident undertsand, no hard feelings. We all mature adult here so lets not think anything anymore of the subject. No hate no name calling, thats all im asking thank you.