Wow, Big C. My heart goes out to you right now. And I'm feeling guilty for having added to the email volume during the Big Texas Scare.

I think you've just turned to yourself and to cyberfriends by putting all that down and venting it. I hope that helped! Look at it this way, if it helps. You're alive and well and healthy as you face all those other challenges. And you're clearly a competent, capable guy with a good wife. I have this intuitive feeling that the powers that be are going to take care of you because you do such a good job of taking care of your own stuff.