i kissed my best friend last night

[BizzleLuvin]

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I'm just curious why you kissed her back in the first place?

good question... i never really asked myself that. i think it was just knee-jerk reaction. honestly, i am as far from bisexual/gay as possible.(i seriously doubt i have any sexual feeling stowards her.) my mom is gay, its a very awkward thing for me. kinda scary.but it happened n a matter of 30 seconds..i kinda went for the ride there

BizzleLuvin Reviewed by BizzleLuvin on 06-17-2006. i kissed my best friend last night yikes, thats the truth. here is what happened: we were STONED. i was spending the night. i woke up with her face right next to mine. she says to me 'youre pretty when u sleep' (this is the kinda platonic nicery that goes on between us, the standard dishing-out of friendly compliments. i thought nothing of it, so i said 'you looked hot stuff in your new dress today'). next thing i know, she grabs my whole face and just kisses me. a long, long, LONG kiss. no tongue. just lip. im stunned. totally Rating: 5

[orangeman]

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I'm just curious why you kissed her back in the first place?

good question... i never really asked myself that. i think it was just knee-jerk reaction. honestly, i am as far from bisexual/gay as possible.(i seriously doubt i have any sexual feeling stowards her.) my mom is gay, its a very awkward thing for me. kinda scary.but it happened n a matter of 30 seconds..i kinda went for the ride there

I dont think it was any of those, I just think you were high and it was just something that happened. Strange (and very interesting) things happens to me when I'm around enough people when I'm blown-out-of-my-mind high. So I wouldnt feel strange or different if I were you, just be careful that the mood isnt too...uhh...deep when your high with your friend next time lol.

[crudemood]

good question... i never really asked myself that. i think it was just knee-jerk reaction. honestly, i am as far from bisexual/gay as possible.(i seriously doubt i have any sexual feeling stowards her.) my mom is gay, its a very awkward thing for me. kinda scary.but it happened n a matter of 30 seconds..i kinda went for the ride there

Well you did say you were both stoned.. so umm im thinking since alot of things tend make alot sense when you're high, maybe it made sense to you to kiss back but of course there is no proper reason to why it made sense, except only because you were high? But that leaves us with no solution except to talk to her. Do it Bizzle talk to her you can do it!

[BizzleLuvin]

i luv all of u guys, so supportive

[orangeman]

i luv all of u guys, so supportive

Was I very supportive?

[mrdevious]

good question... i never really asked myself that. i think it was just knee-jerk reaction. honestly, i am as far from bisexual/gay as possible.(i seriously doubt i have any sexual feeling stowards her.) my mom is gay, its a very awkward thing for me. kinda scary.but it happened n a matter of 30 seconds..i kinda went for the ride there

That may be a big part of why this whole situation is so upsetting to you. Society conditions everybody to be "gay" "strait" or "bi", but really we probably all have the potential for any. I heard in some ancient Roman armies they encouraged the men to have sexual relationships with each other, and it drastically increased combat performance and bravery because they felt they had to look out for each other, due to the emotional attachement. I really think when considering whether or not we're "gay" or "strait", we all need to seriously consider if either is such a terrible thing, and if our repelled response to an opposite sexual preferrence is really so disturbing, or the result of deep-seated societal conditioning.

[m.g.]

send her some flowers with a simple, "see ya soon...love, <name>" and leave it at that. short n sweet but leaves her plenty of room, well, both of you plenty of room yet shows her you're interested in taking it further and you have class...
nothing fancy, just a few roses (3 means love and yellow or salmon pink are always a hot choice) in a simple vase...to send more at this time may appear like you're trying too hard and it'll show her you have taste and common sense!

good luck...and yes, it probably will affect your platonic relationship but a mature conversation AFTER you return will clear up everything and the month apart couldn't be better at this time!

that's what i'd do if it were me in your shoes...

[m.g.]

oops, guess i overlooked the part about biz being a grrrl...lol

but it still oughtta work...lol

[yabatab]

You need to kiss her again and see what
happens this is the only way you can
truly test the freindship.
THIS TIME TAKE PICS

[Its a Plant]

Ah, does anyone have a towel?

all kidding aside, surely this friend of yours thinks of you as more than a friend. High or not, something made her do it, whether she knew it or not. It sounds like one of those subconscious things that people sometimes do without even realizing. Obviously you need to talk with her, and hopefully things will be the same for you two. Good luck with that and have fun in Spain!