I have been OCD (occessive compulsive dissorder) ever since i can remember, it was really bad when i was younger with my life and everything around me haveing to be in order and perfect. but i also think it could of been better then than it is now, cause now im just worried all the time about whats going to happen next, and how i have fucked up in the past and how it has screwed up my futuer and im never going to ammount to anything. i always have thoughts of what my life would be like if i would of just stuck everything out and what would of happend if i dident put myself in those situations. i have had a very rough life in the past 3 years, and that has triggerd hard depression, and my life to fall apart right in front of my eyes. nothing will ever be the same as it was, i no long have any of my friends from school, everyone is growing up around me and it seems like im just standing still and watchin everything go by. i have little to no motivation at all at times because im always thinking. Well i hope my story could be of some help to you, and lets hope its not too late for you to make a change in your life, because you never want to feel like this all the time. good luck.