alright thanks guys, after sleeping on it (i did alot of thinking last night before i feel asleep) i guess all there is to do for me is make the effort to change, and work towards it, never forgetting that if i 'go blind' again, i may wind up in the same place i'm at now, by that i mean i now know i can't allow myself to forget that uncontrolled, i become exactly what i didn't want to become, maybe it's just me, maybe it's everyone i don't know, i just know i have to watch myself now, and stay conscience of what i do/don't in the heat of anger/aggervation/stress... yesterday i was almost in a state of catatonia, i remember starring off in the same dirrection for about 30 mins yesterday just thinking 'how', i'm sure some of you can't/don't understand just how bad it hurt me to realize i'd become everything i swore i would not. thanks for all the support and help, now i guess is the begining of the journey to 'recovery'.
slipknotpsycho Reviewed by slipknotpsycho on . serious question, need serious answers. what do you do, when you've become the person you hate the most, and it's not something that can just be changed? what is there to do, when you've become everything you despise, and you were just so blind you couldn't see it.. what can you do? Rating: 5