what do you do, when you've become the person you hate the most, and it's not something that can just be changed? what is there to do, when you've become everything you despise, and you were just so blind you couldn't see it.. what can you do?
first dont be so hard on yourself, you're probably just gonna make yourself feel worse. in fact be proud of yourself you stopped you're self from being something you hate sooner than later. Its only uphill from there isnt it?